resolutions, revolutions

i never made new year´s resolutions before, because i always doubted i´d live up to them and therefore would at the end of a year just have a long list of things i didn´t do, but this year is different, or will be different. as i mentioned before it´s my big year of changes and as usual with a lot of change from outside there´ll be some inner changing too. in a positive way i hope.
and why resolutions this year? because my list contains almost only things i´d punch myself for if i shouldn´t be able to at least try to make them come true.

1. apply to a FH to become a director. this is not a cineastic blog, i know, but the love and inspiration is ever present in my life. i think in pictures, scenes and light, i can´t help being a very visual person.

2. audition to an acting school. just to see if they´d take me.

3. do something free and daring. like hitch-hiking through europe. going to marocco by train. taking a foot-path over the alps. i´m not a macher, who just goes at something like that alone and i always had the sort of friends who would find it to dangerous to say, hitch-hike to amsterdam. this year i just want to do it, find new friends if i need to or just drag my older brother to instanbul with me.
i don´t want to rely so much on other people´s desicions as i used to.

4. form a band. growing up in a family of musicians i was the black sheep, who never stayed with one instrument long enough to learn it properly. no, i started off with violin, went on to piano, tought myself guitar as i went, started learning to play the trumpet and finally settled with my ukulele. well no i didn´t settle, it´s the instrument that comes easy to me. i settled with singing as being the one thing i know how to do. growing up with my parent´s bands rehearsing in the living room i always dreamed up my own bands as a child, i had names, repertoires and band concepts in my head before i could carry a tune. now being all grown-up (lol) i still sing all the time, still think of bands, still listen to other bands rehearsing so it´s about time i went and started my own group.

5. revolute (if that isn´t a word i just invented it). do something to make the world a better place. or do more. stop being so god-damn lazy. i could be so much more politicial, ecological and ethical correct if it wasn´t easier the other way. it´s the little things that get over looked because i´m to lazy to care if i unneccesarily had yet another coffee to go somewhere with yet another paper cup to be trown away. it seems of course petty to think of things like paper cups but in he long run and the whole picture all the paper cups i use for about ten minutes before i throw the in the next rubbish bin would make quite a number of trees which need a couple of decades to grow back.

6. be positive. it´s the vibes you know. i belive in positive vibration, in the healing powers of an optimist, in the strong heart of a loving person. i might not always follow that concept, i also not one of those optimists who blanks out everything negative (i even believe that that makes one sick), but i want to see the good things in life, the beautiful things, i want to experience and take in all the nice situation around me every day. because they´re there, i just have to see them.

i think that´s enough of big things for one year and i hope it´s not to late for resolutions... i had them floating around for the past two weeks and just needed to put them down, so i decided why not here?

love, honey

i spy with my little eye something beginning with B!

hello there in the new year!
my 2010 has already brought me something wonderful to waste my time with in the form of another british 60s popgroup beginning with the wonderful letter B. who could that b?
it´s the pre-disco bee gees! maybe i just like them because they sound very beatle-esque, maybe i´d like every group from that time if i´d actually listen to them, maybe it´s genetic, because it was actually my mom who got bee gees music for christmas, whereas it has been me who spent the last days listening to nothing else, trying to decide wether how can you mend a broken heart sounds better in stereo or mono (these studies have not yet been successful).
but i´m sure there are some pre-natal experiences involved, when my mom danced around a living room with her sister singing massachusetts at the top of her lungs (which happened again just a week ago) with the volume up and the husbands fleeing.
i´m scarred forever :D

hope you had a nice fresh start into 2010 too!